Throughout life there is change. Change is inevitable and you can not escape it. Change can be both good and bad, but even if it is the best thing why do I still get anxious and apprehensive about it? Right now I need change to grow, I have set out and thouroughly thought about it, prayed about it, sought out counsel on the matter and everything seems to be lining up well for the change, but I can't help but to feel apprehensive and unsure to an extent.
I understand being unsure and apprehensive as part of the deal, seriously with big change there is always the uncertainty of "what if" looming in the background. I just wish I could get rid of the thoughts involved with it. The people I have talked to agree that it is the best move for me and needs to happen. Then why do I still question it?
It's always easy even when you don't like something to become comfortable in it. It's difficult to break up the certainty and comfort to do something else. Uncertainty seems to be the one thing that really hits me. I know that God tells me this is what He wants me to do and I believe and agree it is the best option. He has never steered me wrong so far!
Another thing I would like is to have more options. The one I have is definitely better than the current situation, but there will be a period of struggling in order to make it work. I strongly believe that God will sometimes as you to make changes and be uncomfortable for a time in order to bless you and to draw closer to Him. It seems that this is the only option really presenting itself and sometimes, that's just how it is.
I have pretty much made the decision that the change needs to happen. Unfortunately that doesn't relieve all of the worries that are there. I know that I can look to my support system and most importantly to God to get me through all of this!