Sensational Saturday!

I must admit that today was such a great day! Phil and I took the two youngest kids I watch to a pancake breakfast to support the church's youth group and afterwards we took them to Toys R Us and let them each pick out a little toy. It was great to be able to spend some time with them and not be in "nanny mode."

We followed that by going to the mall where we hung out and shopped for a couple of hours. Since the mall in town is small and doesn't have any good stores, I love it when we venture the 40 (or so) minutes to the bigger mall with all of the great stores. I may or may not have been a little discouraged by not finding anything that currently fits me well and I may or may not have splurged at Victoria's Secret. I also found that if the clothes would fit I would totally shop at J. Crew. It reminds me a lot of American Eagle, but for adults. This just might have to be one of my new goals.

After the mall we headed on over for an early dinner date at The Melting Pot. If you have not been there, seriously go...like now. It is a little expensive, but the four course fondue meal is fantastic. Our two favorites were the cheese and chocolate.

We finished the evening by having a family game night that his parents hosted. It was great to see his aunts, uncles, and one cousin for a few hours of playing games and just spending time together. I love his mom's side of the family and really look forward to seeing them every chance we get.

Tomorrow will probably be more of a relaxing day seeing as we've been so busy today, but it was great to have a whole day with him and know that we still have tomorrow together before the work week starts up again.

Friday=Snow Day

Well it's snowing up here once again and the kiddos are off of school. We've been instructed to stay inside all day because of the winds and snow. The winds are said to get up to 50mph and with the flurries and drifting going on there is no way I want to get out right now...that is unless it is to go to Phil's house and snuggle under the covers while he's at work!

I've been in a great mood lately and wasn't upset at all about the kids staying home. It sure was frustrating when it was for two weeks straight, but today I can totally see why they did it. I'm just hoping for a good day. I figure I'll let them all do what they want as long as they behave.

I've emailed Phil to give him a head's up and was hoping that he might come home a little early today, but unless it gets really bad it doesn't look like that's happening...oh well.

So for right now, I'm just chillin on the internet and relishing in the peace that is the kids doing what makes them happy at the moment. Oh and I may or may not be totally craving cinnamon rolls today...it happens every snow day!

What do you do when it snows?

You want me to do what?

It's been a whole month to-the-day of when my car accident happened. The day of the only major complaint I had was that my right wrist hurt so bad. The ER wasn't sure if it was broken so they sent to to a specialist who has determined that there is no fracture, just a bruise on my bone. He put me in a removable brace and sent me on my way.

Since then the pain has only gotten worse. It is sharp and intense whenever I try to do anything with the right hand. Luckily, I am left-handed with most things, but there are still a number of things I need my right hand for. Being that it got worse, I headed back to the doctor today only to be told that it was "odd" and "not normal" for there to be intense, sharp pain. He still refuses to say that it is anything more than a bruised bone and said that the reason for the pain must be that the "tendons are inflammed." He wants me to go to physical therapy and see him in 3 weeks.

Unfortunately my insurance does not want to pay for it up front and says that I will have to pay for it and wait until they decide to reimburse me from the other guy's bodily-injury coverage. I have been told that I should not have to pay anything out-of-pocket and that since it was decided that I am "not at fault" then his insurance should cover it.

I have a lot of thinking and decisions to make.

Happy Wednesday!

I must admit that I am in a super fantastic mood today! During the couple of hours of break I get while the youngest is in preschool I managed to get a lot accomplished. You see, I really love when my apartment is clean and picked up, but with the majority of my time either at work or Phil's that leaves little time for me to be there. Lately every room has been picked up except my bedroom. It was driving me crazy. When the bedroom is cluttered and messy it really affects my sleep so today I finally decided to put my mind to it and pick it up. It took a little bit of time and effort, but it looks much better than before!

Overcoming

Here's the excerpt from my morning devotional. And this is why I continue even when things are difficult...

"Difficult relationships can sometimes make us feel like we are being dangled over a fire of unreasonable expectations, can't they? It seems easier to simply give up and walk away from all of the emotional stress of trying to make the relationship work. When we make the choice to love a sandpaper person, we are inviting God to work in us and through us to bring about change - to create His image in us so we can then see His image in others. Difficult relationships and combative interactions do not hold up well in an atmosphere of love, because it is through love that stubborn wills are compelled to yield. Under the influence of God's love in our lives, winning no longer seems important to us, as we recognize the value and worth of a soul."

Stressed

I feel like life has thrown me a curve ball. I am stressed, overwhelmed, frustrated, and tired. I feel like my relationship is falling through the cracks and I'm not sure how it can be fixed. I've worked hard and loved him for so long and did everything I could to make him happy and comfortable, but what do you do when the person you love isn't happy with anything and hasn't been for a long time? I can only make my self happy and no one else.

His mom suggested that we drop the subject of marriage for a month and learn to enjoy the relationship and one another for at least a month. She said we needed to start going out of the house on dates and have fun together. I said that I would plan something for this weekend that we can do together that he can enjoy.

My fear at the moment is that he's not going to want to be happy and change his attitude. He is great at appearing happy, but not really being happy. All I can do is pray and try, but right now trying is really hard. I want to give up and move on. I love him and have put in so much, but there comes to a point where if things don't start to change, then it's not going to work. I think we have a rough month ahead of us. I need God's help with this one...it's too big for me.

Our Valentine's Weekend

No, he didn't pop the question yet, but he said very soon! We did have a great weekend and really celebrated a lot! Last night Phil took me to dinner at Paradisios which is a really nice restaurant in the area. We both got dressed up and had a lot of fun. The couple to our right talked really loudly and I may or may not wanted to bang my head against the table, but we managed to entertain ourselves by taking funny pictures. Classy, I know.

One of the more normal pictures we took.

Today we continued the celebration by exchanging cards. Since Phil got his gift early he gave me mine. I got a dozen red roses, a willow tree figurine of a couple representing "together"-ness, some of my favorite candy, and highlights for my hair! We also had a special dinner of salmon wheels with crab florentine with candles lit all around. We finished our night at the marriage couples bible study and had a lot of fun.

This was one of the best Valentine's Weekends I have ever had. I love him so much and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him.