Thursday, December 19, 2013

Exhausted

I feel like I complain a lot lately and I really wish that wasn't the case. The truth is that I'm exhausted on a daily basis and have been for four months. I keep reading blogs and seeing IG and facebook pictures with people exclaiming that they have such a happy baby and I'm happy for them, but that's not the case over here.

Matthew's crying has been getting worse since starting solids and he is doing a new thing where he gags/shrieks and scrunches his whole body up in pain. It's happening more frequently now and he's inconsolable while he's having an episode. I've decided to stop solids for the time being until we can figure out what's going on.

He has a doctor's appointment tomorrow and they are going to do an upper GI scan to see if they can find a cause for all of these issues. The doctor told us at our appointment last week that if it was colic, it should be gone by now so she wanted us to monitor it. Now that it has gotten worse, we have an appointment and a new plan.

I am praying so hard that we can finally have some answers or that he is healed miraculously and we can all look back at this time and be so happy that he is doing better. Until then, I really need to find a way to have some more time away to help me not get overwhelmed.

I love our little boy so much and it's so hard to be going through this with him.

All I want for Christmas is a happy baby who likes to eat and is, of course, healthy.

3 comments:

Sarah said...

:( all the things I've known/heard to help you've been trying.
i really hope there is an answer soon. hang in there mama you are doing great!

Amber in South Carolina said...

Hang in there! I'm so sorry that things are so stressful for you and Matthew. I'm praying for you and hope that you can find some answers soon!!

Lindsay Gillis said...

I'm so sorry to hear things aren't going well. I would stop solids. I mean does he really need them? Maybe another formula change would help? Prayers sent your way mama. I can't imagine the stress and exhaustion from stress you must feel at this point. Hang in there- this too shall pass. I know, easier said than done. I hope tomorrow proves to be helpful.